11/7/23

today is exhausting. like...  extremely exhausting. i hate everything. 

well not really. im just more tired than usual today. 

i was more quiet than usual today in class and i told my friend that i was tired, but she keeps insisting that im mad. i just kindly told her that im exhausted, and i dont have a reason to be angry at her. she still doesnt believe me and didnt sit with me today in lunch, despite me bringing her phone to her when she almost forgot about it. so. im just sitting by myself rn. shes actually in front of me with her brother shes just not talking to me :(

sadistic blood took a lot out of me. some people dont seem to realize that these kinds of media can rlly take ur energy out of u lol.. but i dont regret it, id say it was a small achievement. now i know i can handle crazy shit, albeit barely. it was an experience

i know i said i was going to play room no 9 after, but my other friends told me to get sadistic blood instead, so i was like. alright ! atleast i got it out of the way. i just need to worry about euphoria and maggot baits for now. 

i dunno. i even made her a birthday gift and everything but shes honestly like. very dismissive. its hard to have a conversation with her in text because she ignores me, and she doesnt like waiting for me as im tying my shoes and etc. but its not like i can sit with anyone else. i have other people to sit with, i just dont like sitting in big groups. my only option is to sit by myself lol..

anyways, i hope everyone else is having a nice day though!

update: they both left :(