gender dysphoria Or gender Euphoria? somewhere in between

i am a boygirl, some may say thas a tomboy but i am the girliest boy youll ever meet and girliest masc that ever girled. boygirl boygirl boy girl ima be straight up when i lost so much weight my boobs disappeared and im still bummed by that like theres a lil left but it might be time to get a binder frfr. ive always loved mi boobies even when feel masc. ive been trying to gain weight so they come back but to no avail so far. birth control might bring them back for a while so im complintating that. 

i love dressing masc and being super girliegirligirli girl but also donot touch me i am not him i am She. But when ppl use they/them pronouns for me, Lord my heart goes skyhigh. esp when they dont even know thats what i like the most. i tried getting ppl (family +some friends) to use that pronoun for me cuz tbh, not only do i feel in between, i also feel like a whole lot of different ppl lol but We are One. We are She. We are Her. She is Expansive and is Everything.