idek

omfg i cannot describe how horrible it is living in a small country, in a small town. its not aesthetic or cute. it can be peaceful, and im grateful for that, but looking around and seeing kids acting and wanting to be like fucking gang members is truly horryfying. what am i doing here? people my age dont read, dont watch movies, dont listen to other music besides mainstream, no matter the music genre. like, for metalheads here its slipknot, for most its lil peep or eminem, for some its taylor swift. and theres no actual emos or goths or punks. everyone is a fucking poser, and im not exaggerating. i know subcultures arent something that has labels, but there are rules. theyre not many, and theyre simple, but theyre there. to preserve subcultures. you cant be a fucking goth or punk without listening to the music. you need to actually put effort into searching about the culture. its not just a trend.

everyone looks the same. copy/paste. and when you try to be different, make a change, youll get called emo or retard. i honestly give zero shits, but it makes me lose faith in humans. it truly makes me feel small.