Galls, am I right or am I right?

Okay, so another blog post today explaining my total loserness self. 

So basically ALL my best friends from last year left because they all wanted to go to better schools which left me at my school all alone and mind you my school is SMALL like I have like 14 ppl in my class and only 4 girls including me all of those girls are sort of bitches/ and or have NO personality so wtf am I suppose to do now I just sit on the floor or by myself and its soooooo embarrassing I hate my school so much every day is draining and I can't do anything ab it (i technically can but I just really don't want to be friends with them) 

first of all one of them ill call this one girl #H, so she's kinda ok but she's ALWAYS with her bf and I just really don't wanna be the third wheel just sitting there while they grip each other's torsos and eye fuck each other.

Second of all, there's this other girl. We'll call her Webbs so this befriending is a BIG NO NO because we actually used to be really good friends 2 years ago but last year at the beginning of the school year I got into drama with another member of our friend group and everything went to total dog shit which ended up with me eating in the bathroom stall or with the loser group at lunch (no offense to them but seriously) but anyways it's just sorta awkward between us and there are still 2 girls left over from that ex-friend group at my school but in the other class so if they see us together it'll be weird.

third of all,    the last girl        . We'll call her Tracey. So Tracey is a bitch basically. She's popular and starts drama. She just transferred back to my school last week after leaving for freshman to another school but came back anyway. (woohoo to me, I finally get to put another girl on my list of ppl to avoid!) Shes is scary and intimidating and is besties with #H. + I get the feeling she doesn't like me that much by the way she looks at me, I can feel it in my gut. 

Maybe i just being really picky with my friends but maybe that's not a bad thing. I wish I didn't ghost my friends at the very end of last year I don't even know why I did that I had no reason to they were great ppl and I even got to see my fav from the group on this Halloween event at school for a split second but it's like she just totally forgot ab me like she just walked past me with her friend and it kinda sucks but whatever. UGH I hate this place so much I just want to move back to California and go to school with my cousin, she always tells me funny stories about her and her friends and I have nothing but sitting near the guy who spells like what you would expect a taco bell bathroom after someone was in there for a good solid 2 hours smells like (he smells that fucking bad I shit you not *haha funny pun there*) 

Im so tired every fucking day just sitting there class after class after class I can't stand it anymore im losing my mind. I've noticed that I'm daydreaming so much more than I was in the beginning of last year and im maybe a lil concerned. At first, it was only at night when I had to sleep but now it's all day every class, and I can't stop even if it hurts my head. Im losing motivation and every day I feel the urge to run up to Oregon barefoot in rags of clothing to live out the rest of my life in the woods with no worries about how im going to pay for University, food, bills, and other essential shit that I need to survive when im older get stronger. I feel isolated and suffocated. Im slipping up on my grades and my social skills have been getting worse I really can't do this anymore. Im so done with this shit I feel so close to giving up on my education and future. Im done.