recovering from an episode

i had a really bad depressive episode that lasted for about a month, most likely after i got my meds changed. they changed the meds ive been taking for 4 yrs, so it beat me up pretty good lol.

thankfully, im feeling much better now, but have to readjust to how i lived before. i didnt leave my bed for majority of the month, or really eat, so now im at 86 lb lol. med manager said if i get back up to 90 lb, i can have my risperidone back T_T

i have to talk to a nutritionist now but thats alright lol. its mainly a matter of finding something i want to eat. a lot of things will taste gross for no reason one day, and then ill enjoy them the next. 

also have to rebuild my relationship with my parents and bf....its difficult, but i really dont want to push people away anymore. i feel less anxious going outside now, so thats a plus