a bunch of my poems

just some poems i wrote, tw for self harm

these will be updated as i do more soo

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When I die, comfort me.

Stand by my side and usher me.

Show me to my grave and let me mourn. Let me take it all in. This body that I've worn.

When I die, comfort my mother.

Have her bury me with my favourite item

wrap me up in my fluffiest blanket

the one she bought be a few days before that terrible day

When i die, comfort the shopkeeper

Tell him no longer will I show up on his work days

Show him the card, i wrote on my deathbed

Dedicated to the man who kept me well fed

When i die, comfort my home.

It’ll be empty and barren, all alone

Fill it with joy, like it used to know.

Remove my items, and give it its own.

When i die, don’t forget me

Keep my life alive, with the ones who loved me

Whether items or person, even a pet Just make sure it’s the love they won’t forget.

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A word slathered on my head.

Rude and unjust

And yet it was said

Claimed I was a freak it did

Wrote in permanent marker on my perfect skin

A sight to behold

That's what i was

Stumbling gasping, begging for air

Like the stump of a tree

Fallen from grace

Lost they said i was 

In my own mind

like i was on a missing poster plastered on a milk carton

Like i wasn’t here, hearing them as they spoke

Like they couldn’t see me at all

A single breath

That turned into a thousand words

I couldn’t control, like a poem i read but hadn’t wrote

Hateful, yet truthful, 

Like i was spilling out on the kitchen floor

A apology

As true as it could be

For the burden i had been

Said with a knife against my skin

Like a punishment for what had been deemed

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