lil vent pt. like what? 4-5? idk

Saturday, nov. 4, 2023 

the last few days have really been difficult. i haven’t been sleepin much and i can’t really smoke anymore due to anxiety and whatever else. i’ve been spending most of my time trying to find friends at least, whether they be in person or online, i just feel really alone. i know i shouldn’t, i have my sister and my boyfriend, but it’s difficult sometimes not having friends, like actual “i met this person and now we’re buddies” type deal. i think i might just be too antisocial and too worried that he might think something else is going on when in reality, i just want friends sometimes.