god

each passing night,

i still pray to Jesus Christ,

despite not going to church ever since i got baptized 

i consider myself religious

my parents are religious,

everyone in my village is,

why are they all holy whilst i am not

why cant i be like them

why do i randomly get bursts of energy randomly

why do i hyperfixate randomly

why do i pray to god, whilst im in tears to fix my broken life

each time i pray, some good does happen so

maybe who knows

eitherway im unholy

i dont deserve the gift of life maybe