femininity

i sometimes ponder 

what would it have been if i were born a women

i don't even know what skin im wearing anymore

i question each passing day what i am

my parents still think im a strong and eroic male

whilst i don't even know

am i female

am i neither

am i still a man

i wish i could be feminine,

i wish and i wish but it'll never help

ill forever be stuck with myself