i just want to be alive again

I wish i could be alive and not asleep.

When you touch my lips i feel so at ease,

I know youre bad for me but youre the one i need.

Without you i cant feel bad, i can only feel what they do.

But you,it was love at first sight, the first lick of your half naked body still caresses me at night.

I have never felt so warm in my life, the blood pumping like i had fire in my vains...

The only real love, the only real feeling i've had in years now.

I cant stop thinking about how you made me feel so small, but they werent the only ones.

This one made me see the world through a whole other body.

So sensual and soft,,getting bigger as the air filled my lifeless body.

You made me this. you made me like this. YOU planted this seed into  my head that i cannot get rid of now and you wont help me.

You never helped me, even when i was crying for death to come get me.