hihi, it's been a while

I haven't really been spending a lot of time online lately, at least not in the way that I'd like to. This has year has been very tough, and it's been a huge adjustment period in my life. I've been spiraling a lot this year as well which hasn't been helping, but at least there have been a lot of good times to be remembered.

Now I just feel kinda.. broken, and lost? I've had to deal with 2 eviction notices as I try to get my life and work in order, but my current living situation hasn't really been helping with that. I'm just tired, but determined to keep going.

I can't believe it's already November as well. Jobs are about to get even more intense, which is what scares me going forward with my job hunting. The pay will be nice, but idk. Corporate america is slowly tearing me apart.

I wish I could work at a Library or something and just sort books and put them on the shelves. Something quiet and peaceful, away from all of the production efficiency hellscape we live in today

Fun note to end with:

Even though today sucked, 

I made some coffee and saw 1:11, 13:13, and 1:23 on the clock this hour. 

Little things like this help my mind escape from the chaos just a lil bit.

Been really into Monster High again lately too. I am literally Twyla