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Lately ive been talking to God again. ive been praying and trying to connect with him, as he used to be my best friend when i was younger. i feel the same connection but im confused as to way they say God saved them. i cannot understand that because why hasnt god saved me?
its confusing. 
im confused.
my emotions are too much for my fragile body to handle and i can feel the decay throughout my body. if im Gods child, why isnt he saving me?
why isnt he helping me?
I will never stop believing; but i will stop believing in peace.

I think my life was created for the sole purpose of example and nothing more
Like a science experiment that you discard after testing, doing research.

Ive been through it all, whos to say this assumption is wrong?

Ill just keep praying.

Ill just keep hoping.

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