getting into university is hard...

This sunday, I'll have to do the last year exam that everyone does to get in university. 90 questions and a full essay(? don't know if that's what it's called in english), and then next sunday I'll have another 90 questions to do...

I want cinema, which is pretty hard to get in to (too many people for very few slots available). I need to get at least 800+ in my essay (I write well but i need to follow their formula to get a good grade). I don't think I'll be able to pass this year, I hope to at least pass in the second call, but I'm not so sure...

this is more of a rant than anything. I don't have much to say except how f up my mental health is and I only hope that at least next year I can focus more on studying if I don't pass this year (and hopefully my parents will chill out a bit)