CURRENT STATUS AS OF 10/31/2023

This is not my cat but I wish it was.

HAPPY MOTHERFUCKING HALLOWEEN!

if any of you guys are still out there basically i haven't been on at all that much since school started...

and the short of it is that i've had not a lot of time to post on here. and also i feel like when i'm at school all the time i have to be a different person (both in terms of masking and being trans) and a big part of that is like not being like autistic transgender emo whatever that i can actually be on here.

basically i'm saying that it's like weird for me to remember to go on here because i'm in a different headspace (trying to be a different person) all the time when i'm at school. like you know emo me loves to go on here and like watch scary movies and like pretend it's the 2000s but like real world me has to worry about like fitting in at a catholic school and like homework and pretending to be a girl and stuff and it's really fucking exhausting but whatever. 

always really hard for me to get back into like the mask for the first time after summer. whatever super dramatic but i don't care it's honestly true and i'm allowed to feel that way even if it's super melodramatic and annoying. 

sooo i will probably be on here more often when i'm on break from school.

but yeah it's been tough hahaha

i'm trying guys i'm trying I am!

xoxo ray