big chop chop ( ￣▽￣)

hi hi hi, all my lovlies! it's been a while since i've been on here T_T. a lot have happened within the last couple of months. 

i've cut my hair into a buzzcut (not really, more like a big chop cut). my hair was relaxed last year because i spend the summer in texas (& i wanted to experiment with a relaxer), and while it was easier to take care of, i was doing nothing with it. all i was doing was putting my hair in a ponytail or letting it down with a dingy headband that was five seconds away from breaking. i was tired of waking up, brushing it, and putting it into the same style. also, did i mention relaxers BURN? i had to get my hair touched up & re-relaxed (is that even a word? ＼(_ _)) every couple of months. i lost some hair because of it & losing hair sucks! turns out the only way you can get rid of relaxer is either doing the big chop or letting it grow out. you can guess which one i chose.

at first, everyone but my mom was against me getting my hair cut because they thought i would look like a boy. which... okay? my uncle refused to cut my hair, everybody who i knew that cut hair refused to cut it. so on a hot summer night, i decided to take matters into my own hands.

okay so yes, i cut my hair myself. nobody would do it! and plus, nobody was going to let me walk outside with my hair a mess. so they had to let me do a big chop. i hid my hair into a scarf for the remaining time until my mom cut it (NOTE; MY MOM BROKE HER ARM & IT WAS HER DOMINANT ARM!) so, my mom was shaving my hair off and... let's say it didn't look good. the back was messed up, the front was decent. but her arm was broken and she tried her best. i had to get my hair faded and cleaned up by a female barber we usually go to. we been going to her for years. sweet lady. but as she was lining my hair up, she kept saying why did i do it? the tone was very weird. i just told her i wasn't doing anything with it. 

she kept saying that with this cut, i needed to wear makeup, earrings, etc because I'll look like a girl. she also lined up my eyebrows and put on some earrings (which would be nice if i ASKED for it >:[...) i took out my earring because sensory issues. she kept bugging me about getting a design. i didn't get one but the second time she retouched my hair, she gave me a design without asking. my grandma was going on and on about how much i look like a man, and so did my uncle. 

honestly, i really don't like how people think because i cut my hair, I'm not feminine. I'm still me. I still enjoy things like makeup, girly clothes, etc. I just have a really short haircut. & my hair shouldn't define how i act. & i really hate how people made me feel weird because I had my hair cut. i was already doing these things before but nobody gave it no mind. now i get my hair cut, and i have to do these things so i don't seem "manly". weird |ﾟーﾟ)ﾉ.

but anyways, people really liked it. and so did i! it fit my head shape, it was cute, easy to manage, very easy to wash, i love it! ofc people at my school were shocked but they didn't pay it no mind. at the end of the day, i love it. and for all my fellow black girls that are thinking about doing the big chop, do it!

be good people!

hugs & kisses >3<

mars