loneliness (tw) -🥒🥁

Listen. I love my boyfriend to hell. I just. He’s in a rough situation and I can hardly ever talk to him. I just get so lonely. I don’t ever really get any love. We kind of just talk and theres a bit of an “I love you” and “I love you more”, then he has to get off. I just.

You know how hard it is missing home? I know Kevin loves him, but I miss Nathan, and I want so desperately to just. Go back home and hang out with the band again. Its so lonely just sitting here and hoping he’ll come online but he doesn’t. Online relationships suck but I’d sure prefer an online relationship that we talk every day instead of one we talk once or twice a week. I miss him, but I feel like the feelings are fading away. It hurts. I love him and I don’t want to abandon him, but what do I even do in this situation? I wanna be loved, yeah, but. I don’t know. Im having conflicting feelings and I just want My bandmates back. I just feel lonely I guess. It’s whatever.