Playing Fear & Hunger

I've been getting really insanely attached to Fear & Hunger while playing because of how fascinating the horror aspects of it are. The way that the body horror, religious aspects and adult themes are presented really leave me unnerved. And that's awesome. Some of its darker content is definitely supposed to give the feeling of shock but it doesn't feel tasteless compared to some other RPG horror games I've played. I'll see a few RPG horror games that feel like they only added something just to be a cheap surprise. This doesn't feel like that. It feels like it belongs, if that makes sense. It would feel incomplete without its grotesque and horrific depictions of human sexuality. It feels refreshing and makes me want to incorporate more horror aspects into my own stories. I'm also adoring the playable characters. D'arce and Cahara make me happy. I should draw them some time.

I'm also interested in Rag n Enki but I haven't seen enough of Rag to really be attached and Enki just kind of reminds me of myself if I was more bitter. At least based on my impressions of him. Who knows. Maybe he's just the biggest piece of shit ever and I'll regret saying this later. I know that when you play him that he's got a really neat emphasis on magic. I'm a little curious to play as him but I know I'll have to be a little more experienced before I can feel comfortable playing as him.

Only thing I am sad about with this game is that I still haven't gotten insanely deep into the game because I keep dying!! I managed to get Moonless at some point which made me excited, only to shortly die after. I felt like I was finally getting somewhere after getting my ass beat a few times by guards.

I'm still really determined to beat the game at least once for each playable main character. Not sure how I'll fare but I've kind of learned that sometimes the RNG is just shit, and sometimes the RNG is incredibly favorable. It's a little annoying but honestly it's kind of like how I feel when I play Don't Starve Together (another game involving hunger mechanics and sanity, ironically). While it's frustrating it really is just trial and error and just hoping convenient things are laid out for you while also being incredibly conscious of what you have. 

I think it's really funny how I was insistent on actually starting to play the game myself all because I was getting mad at how someone was playing it when I was watching a let's play. Felt like the dude playing it absolutely refused to do the bare minimum to survive by getting supplies from crates and didn't read text and I was just like "aaaaaaghhhh PLEASE go back PLEASE go back STOP RUNNING PAST ITEMS!!!!"

Before starting to play it, my only experience with the game was watching some videos about the subject while ALSO being incredibly lost in the process. Glad I actually got around to getting the game bc I'm having a blast (while also pulling my hair out).

idk. Good game. I'll probably make another blogpost at some point when I get farther in.