25 | dying sucks balls :/

Started my community nursing rotation and they placed me in home and hospice care. There are two aspects of nursing I absolutely did not want to get into and it was hospice, and psych.

it’s just so depressing seeing people at their worst selves because of dementia, or some terminal cancer. I’ve only been here for one day and have seen heavy stuff as it is. I had to cry a little after that shift because it was already so emotionally heavy. But who knows, maybe I’ll grow to like it. I need to look at it from a more positive lens even though that’s hard.

Also the fact that it’s home nursing so I’ll be driving around and might end up using the high way. Silly little fact about me is that I actually am too scared to drive the highway ): . I used to get away with just waking up earlier and driving the backroads, but if I’m with a nurse it might just not work that way. Leave it to nursing school to finally forcing me to get over it. I’ll practice over the weekend.

I hate doin this shite man