lifes sucks and things TW

I’m nots allowed to sees my family or anything’s. Am locked up in a room from the moment I comes home and I haves to stares at a blank ceilings all day. Life am dull. People tells me to kill myselfs everyday and I asks if they am serious and they says yes. Everyone’s in my life hates mes and I gets grounded if I don’t haves all A, if I’m haves a b it nots seems as progress it am seems as “ok now does better”

I ams the happy guy and fella but I soon can’t take much more of it. I wants to cries, I haves nobody to holds me and tells me it am oks and I know that am not metals or brutal but I think my mind am breaking or something’s. All I can does all day is draw and sneak on here because it am the only website that is am not blocks. I’m sads and I miss the not real days of when I was am caress fors by the band. But here I haves never been cared for, my dads hates me and my mom is am dead and before that she hated me toos, my grandparents am bad peoples and now I haves nobodies. Not evens my partners because my dad hides my phone. I ams use my I pad to go on here so I can’t texts my partner. I ams alone and everyone hates me, they am told me themselves. I’m so tired and I wants to give ups.