Loneliness

I have always felt alone, loneliness is not an unfamiliar feeling for me. Yet these days i fall into the same pit I once tried so desperately to crawl out of, and the only thing sets this current occasion of mine apart from the rest that I've lived through is the fact that my nails have gone tired from crawling, day by day by hands go numb, and the facade of the person I want to be has been begging to be no more. I want to seek for help, but to who and where is there to turn to anyway.