literally a rollercoaster rn

alr i´m using this as a diary now and just want to talk about my life atm. currently at a friends house (which is also the office for our software developing company) learning js and html for a website we´re working on rn. i´m EXHAUSTED because they all´ve been coding for years and i just started but it´s so exciting cause we already have 4 clients wanting their stuff to be digitalized. i am the manager rn because that´s all i can do, but it´s so fun to work with friends on something fun.

second i miss my ex boyfriend so much and just can´t stop stalking him (i HAVE to be honest to just get it off my mind) and i´m forcing myself not to but i want to know what he´s doing and HOW he´s doing.

last thing i am in debt and did not even pay my rent this month. working everyday in a restaurant to get it going but my back hurts so much i want to cry everytime i´m holding something.

currently working on a new album (go check my spotify or linktree if u want :3)

mentally i´m inbetween 0-10 but it´s okay cause i stopped taking my meds for a month and have to get to the doctors first. all in all it´s a pretty horrifying rollercoaster but i love adrenaline and think my life would be boring if i wouldn´t have so much going on.