On my way to school

Currently on my way to school and i swear to god i am so scared and anxious since im going to school (after not going for 3-4 weeks) knowing that half of my classmates and some teachers were talking shit abt me. That makes me so scared and anxious on my way to school right now. It makes me feel so scared i swear it feels like how i felt when i was 11 years old and doing a presentation and all eyes were on me. It feels so weird it feels like im being judged and i hate it. I know i might sound dramatic like “stop overthinking/reacting, its just people talking shit abt u not that they are gonna kill you” I KNOW I KNOW. It is what it is. Ill try to not care of what is gonna happen or what is around me. I try. Ill try bringing my old self back. The one where she doesn’t care about what others think and just continue being crazy like she usually was (im gonna cry in the school’s bathroom)