what did i even do to my classmates like wtf

THEY KEEP TALKING ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK I SWEAR TO GODDD I THOUGHT I WOULD ESCAPE THIS SINCE I'M TRANSFERRING INTO A YEAR LEVEL WITH MAINLY OLDER STUDENTS BUT I GUESS IMMATURITY EXISTS EVERYWHERE BECAUSE!!!!!!! I ALWAYS FEEL THEM LOOKING AT ME AND I HEAR THEM WHISPERING MY NAME AND GIGGLING AND IDK IF IT'S MY ANXIETY OR GUT INSTINCT (my gut instinct which is usually right) BUT LIKE I FEEL LIKE THEY'RE NOT TALKING POSITIVELY ABOUT ME AT ALL

like what did i even do to them?? i'm quiet i keep to myself i'm not mean i'm not rude i'm helpful i get good grades i'm not useless during group tasks like SURE i may not be as extroverted or sociable as them, and i don't have many friends in my class and i struggle to speak the same language as them but like????? there is NOTHING wrong that i am doing to warrant this 

over the weekends i stressed over this one group project, i took on a very big role, you could say i'm practically acting as the leader for this project, and my groupmates haven't been very participative. and you know what i'm fucking getting? three of my groupmates, sitting in front of me, talking about me with their loud fucking voices and they were fucking HOWLING AND LAUGHING THEIR ASSES OFF like what the HELL DUDE 

i get more fucking manners from people online than these fucking assholes irl

i don't get a thank you for the work or contributions i do and right now i don't care too much about it, i basically need to contribute as much because their grade is my grade, but they still have the audacity to fucking . mock me

i'm not entirely sure what the hell they're talking about but something about their tones and body languages feels like they're not talking about me positively

and like? it is bad for people to talk about me behind my back (or rather, in this case, right in front of me??) but please if they really can't stop their dumbfuck brains from doing it then they should at least do it discreetly. learn how to fucking shut up and whisper. or gossip in dms about how i (checks notes) killed their family and burned their crops because i'm a good student or whatever. they could be plastic to me all they want AS LONG AS THEY NEVER LET ME FIND OUT THAT THEY'RE BEING PLASTIC IN THE FIRST PLACE

LET ME BE UNAWARE!!!!!!!!!!