10/19/23 Tue

10/19/23:

Today I got told that bitch knew I was talking shit abt her ok so whatever I don’t fucking care I never did SHES just a damn bottom feeder and suck up wish I was the Anthony gem so I would make her a puppet and kill her off gosh she’s annoying af besides I wasn’t scared of her idc if I got beaten up my sister told me once “gem if u ever get into a fight grab their hair first and never stop hitting” I would follow that but school grounds and I’m not trying to get expelled or suspended bec not trying to make mom worried

AT HOME:

I went to check my discord even if I was on a break cause I felt like my friends/online bsf got bored of me and me realizing I felt fucked and pathetic af anyway my server disappeared just great just wat I needed for this terrible day I went to ask my friends they said it got deleted I was furious anyway I went to hav a conversation with my online bsf and I couldn’t tell if should be happy or upset? I don’t really know all Ik is that my hatred is gonna get in the way on me and my online bsf friendship now… but I still care abt them more then anyone I didn’t realize that my hatred found its new victim which was my online bsf I just need to make a damn apology for them and my other friends bec on break I realized it’s my fault and damn I just became soft again gosh anyway no it’s not my fault they (my real life friends) just didn’t know I put them first before myself and I got fucked ugh..pathetic whatever..the only apology I needa make is to my rea life best friend,my friend/crush and my online bsf for being a dramatic,pathetic piece of shit..