Luan's stupid stuff #5

In case I were to leave you first…

I would like you to know how much I truly loved you, how I'll always will. that you've been the meaning of my world or at least the part of it that you were in

i cannot truly express how much i loved you, I LOVE YOU so much

so so so much…

but i also need to confess that i'm hurting

in a type of pain that surpasses love itself

a pain that you’re causing me 

but I know it's not your fault… there's no way you'd have known, even less if i don't tell you 

but weirdly enough, telling it also hurts…

due to the fear that you may not care 

or that it may also cause you pain as well and i don't want that 

i've spent as long as i have reason dwelling with my existence so it may not be an inconvenience to you, because i know that I, MYSELF  unraveled, will be a problem to you

and i don't want that 

all i want is to feel like you loved me, if you ever did

so in the terrifying case i ever leave you first, please just tell me you love me, or that you loved me at all