So I was put on an SSRI

So I went to the doctor about a month ago and she put me on a "mood stabilizer" for my bipolar disorder and BPD. At first, it felt like I HAD to get on something because the amount of angry outbursts and putting holes in walls was just too much, honestly. I put one in the bathroom wall because of a verbal argument and almost dislocated a finger. So, I made the med appointment with my therapist, who Id seen a hand full of times, and went. 
First red flag, she met with me the first time on a zoom call. Second red flag, I was told I was seeing "the doctor", she was an LPN. My mom was an LPN. She said it stands for "lesser paid nurses". It sealed the deal for me when I told her about prior diagnoses including my austism diagnosis at age 7 or 8. She asked me about "any instances where you would exhibit autistic traits as a child?" and I told her about times where I couldnt control my rage and I would blindly do things without thinking of reprocussions, like climbing on top of the fridge and sitting there to read or whenever I would go silent for days on days simply because I didnt want to talk. She looked me square in the face and said "I believe you just have bipolar." Then, she asked me about my depression and such. I told her that Ive always had depression and anxiety. She told me that "since you had just had a baby in 2022, it's just PPD". And...that...sent..me. I was about to throw in the towel on her but I knew I needed those meds. She prescribed Oxcarbozopine and Vraylar. One was covered by insurance and the other....is $1600 for a month dose. I firgured I could wait until my next reup appointment and Im probably just going to switch to something else...thats not three months of my car payment.