24 | toxic gossip trainnnn

my closest friend from work may be resigning due to the toxic environment. The thing is, she’s right, it is pretty bad. Coworkers talk so badly about one another it’s so casual, like literally the person in subject will just be 10ft away. She’s has been subjected to a lot lately, and I fully support her decisions.

I feel so much for her especially because I have a history of being bullied that way. It’s so awful. You really feel alone, like everyone views you as below them, and you lose trust in the people around you. I am glad I can be there for her.

I am staying here because I’m in a position where I can’t leave due to scheduling/school issues. Though I am worried for myself too, as this would be the THIRD person who I know to leave due to work culture issues. I need to watch my back. Though most of all, I just want no part of whatever back talking they have around there. I don’t want that to be me. But I do worry about my self esteem.

my break today was nice. I finally felt like I had time to myself for the first time in a while. I almost didn’t know how to act, thinking about studying and work too much. I even considered picking up a shift.