school dance rant

ok so

my school is hosting a pink/barbie/breast cancer awarness month- themed dance, and I have a dress that i am super excited to wear (i hate dresses, so this is a step up for me). But i kinda have some trauma (no, not like bad bad trauma) from last years dance when i thought this girl was into me, but she wasn't. i made this whole big ass deal about giving her flowers (flowers. yeah, that's how fucking in love i was with this girl) and then she asked me to slow dance and i was like OH MY GAWD SHE ACTUALLY LIKES ME BROO!

she didn't like me at all. and now I am crushing hard on TWO people. more with one than the other. But I REALLY DON'T WANT THIS DANCE TO GO LIKE THE LAST ONE. but like, what if one of the two people likes me??

I will never know until I...like...try??