16102023 ☆ silly little things because im bored

Hi, i dont know abput what to talk about, but if i told you that i want to be emo? or well, i wanted to, but my mommy thinks i want to join cults and stuff, but i just want to because my sister when she was my age only didn't become emo because she has curly hair and couldn't get her bangs done, but funnily enough she looks too emo in all the pictures my parents have of her at 15, and I'm not just saying that because of her looks, I have memories of when she was getting ready to go to class, she would play music on her computer while she was getting dressed and I would sit and watch the videos, and she was always listening to emo and rock or pop songs. And recently we were talking and she told me what stores her emos friends shopped at, and just yesterday I went to the mall, but I couldn't stop by one of the stores, only the one where they bought the belts, and even though I didn't find what I expected and wanted, I found some apple shaped hair clips!!! and I definitely had to buy them and that's what I did ><.

On the other hand, as being emo doesn't work for me because of my mother, I keep myself as gyaru, although I'm not that gyaru either.... I lack some makeup tools and also more practice to make my eyes T__T, but I still try, also with my outfit, although it's complicated because it's not like I have so many key garments to make an outfit in which you can see that I'm gyaru, but the positive side is that my mommy lets it happen, yay!  

Nothing to do with the whole topic, but I remembered when one of my friends, Marck was listening to music from one of my playslit and started to play xoxo (kisses hugs) by bar6lyhuman and he looked at me funny... and I started to listen to it because he and Tobias were singing it and I liked the rhythm, but when he heard it in my playlist his reaction was literally "Ri? Is that you? I didn't expect to hear something like that from you bro". And is that in the eyes of many I'm a saint T__T, I'm not saying I'm a badass or an actual saint, not that I'm involved in bad things or sum. I just spend all my day rotting in my bed and hate going out if its not to the mall, but they describe me with things too tender bro, and those who know me more but still making those comparisons know that my appearance is somewhat different from my personality, Tobias and my niece once called me bewitched doll ... but still appreciate the nice compliments from my friends, and I like to see their reactions to certain things when I take more confidence and react as Marck. 

Anyway, on sunday there will be a fnaf cosplay event in a mall here in my country, and Ariel invited me, I AM EXCITED, I want to make a mangle inspired outfit to go and I also want the movie to come out so I can watch it with my friends.  

- Ri☆