Vent

I'm so fucking done, im so done with everything. I'm already having a shit day,cried almost 10 times already,my period started,and my gf i feel is distancing herself from me before breaking up with me, and i'm just about done with people.I ate for the first time today after feeling like i was gonna throw up and the SECOND i took  bite of a damn pop tart,this bitch looks at ME before turning to her friend and the both of the laughing.I know i shouldnt let this get to me so damn bad but ive been struggling with eating,always either eating too much or not enough,and today turned out to be one of the days i dont eat,and just people need to FUCK OFF. This god damn school would be better off abandoned,and the people just gone.I wanna bash their damn heads in but the thing stopping me is my dad,my future,my sister,and not wanting to be looked at as a damn monster by my family.They already look at me as a damn monster because of something that i didnt even do,and then my mom just spreads shit about me and EVERYONE NEEDS TO FUCKING STOP! School was my damn place to get away from everything but NEVER FUCKING MIND.