Crying, Screaming, Hyperventilating

Imma keep it brief (lie), my phone is gone and the new one doesn't have my photos or note and im freaked out. I sincerely don't know what to do so everytime i think about it i cry or cover my eyes, ik this sounds mad dramatic but the reason that I care so much is because my mind does this things where i try to convince myself things didnt happen or that all my memories are made up, so I document every single thing and go back and look at it when it happens. Like rn as we speak Im  thinking of memories but it feels like they are fake. I really dont know what im gonna do , and ik i sounds crazy or dumb but im gonna save up whatever i have to to get it fixed because if i don't get those photos and notes back ill have a come apart. Pray for me fr yall cuz im cant even believe it happened.