about me

why hello there 

i have decided to make a post, despite this being a blog, to do something other than blogging and make an about me since i am perfectly comfortable with sharing my inner thoughts and struggles on the internet so why not reveal myself too. 

so

i'm blake, i'm a minor, and i live in a small country near australia. i'm in a shitty public high school, and i am a closeted trans masc who is attracted to men. my friends are mostly popular girls so i'm always looking for interesting online friends to make up for the fact that little me though high school would be like heartstopper or some gay movie where i make lots of nice, funny friends who were lgbt like me. 

i've had a crush on the same guy since mid-late 2022 and most of my posts are about us. he lives in the states so i can never see him and he's older than me. he is also somehow more mature AND less mature than me so talking to him can be confusing. he is a cisgender teenage boy and, i think closeted, bisexual. he watches anime and says gyat. but that's okay because he is pretty much the love of my life. 

i'm an introvert and really shy and awkward but i have a problem with talking too much so i am somehow a loud introvert. i listen to music literally all day. my comfort shows are, for some reason, the loud house and the simpsons and my comfort movies are currently k-12, grown ups, and turning red along with lots of other disney, pixar, and disney channel movies. 

i read a lot of alice oseman books - my favourite book (of all books) is solitaire, and i'm currently reading loveless. i read the heartstopper graphic novels on webtoon and tried some other bls, since i thought as a gay guy i would enjoy them, but i was wrong. i found some shitty offensive one called religiously gay and it was not good. 

i love many things and if i even slightly develop an interest in something, i will say that i love it. so maybe don't trust me on anything i say i love if it's not listed here. 

i love cats - real and pretend ones, like pusheen, nyan cat, that one angry cat cartoon where it yells at you in a motivating way, and hello kitty. i also love miffy and studio ghibli movies. i love yandere simulator (NOT yandev, hate that guy.) and DDLC, even though it literally gave me trauma. (not a joke, i spent months in recovery somehow...but i still love it). natsuki is a cutie pie. so is sayori. and yuri. and monika. and sometimes MC. 

i don't watch much anime, but i did read the first tokyo ghoul manga and started watching jojos bizarre adventure since my bf i did not just type that....... since FISH who ISNT MY BOYFRIEND is obsessed with it. 

i can't exactly define my music taste; my favourite artists are melanie martinez, mitski, elita, and cavetown who are described as indie\bedroom pop, but i also love guns n roses, the black keys, pavement, royal blood, and other rock artists. do not get me started on the cure, kiss, and other "goth" artists. i will happily listen to anything, but i don't really like the genre of music where the album cover is some hypercore anime art, the title of the song is in capitals with "!" at the end...otherwise known as odetari but he seems like a really nice dude and i admit some of his songs are catchy but not really my taste. i am going to a p!nk concert next year, which is exciting. 

i used to have a draco malfoy phase, but it got me through a hard time so instead of moving on, i just got into shifting realities and changed his whole personality and demeanor so i could date my dream guy and call it draco malfoy. i also gave him a new face claim, voice claim, etc. so really, this is draco malfoys hot clone. 

i am not religious, i just believe that when you die, you go wherever you believe you'll go. and if you don't believe in anything, you just come back as something else. but i don't know what i'd call that. 

anyway i might edit this in the future but i think that's enough general info on me. if you ant to be friends (PLSPLSPLSPLSPLPSLPSLSPLSPLSPSLPSLSPLSPLS) u can msg me for my socials! <3

bye love u