girlhood

girlhood

my girlhood was a gross, unsettling affair

my girlhood was filled with long drives and eating dry cereal in the car on the way to school.

my girlhood had a lot of lizards.

“babydoll, put the poor lizard down”

my mama didnt like when i brought the lizards i caught to her.

my girlhood was captured by a polaroid camera, only one picture survived said girlhood.

it’s an over-exposed picture of my cousins.

you can barely make out their faces but its treasured all the same

my girlhood was dirty.

my girlhood was spent arguing with my mother over stupid things, brushing my hair, getting up in the morning, or what music we would listen to in the car.

we always listened to her old country music.

my girlhood was spent on the floor on my decaying house playing my 3DS while my mama made dinner,

my girlhood was packing everything up and leaving every two years

my girlhood was filled with nights where i couldn’t understand why they wouldn’t leave me alone.

my girlhood was upsetting.