22 | obligatory quarter-life crisis

I’m typing this out on my new iPad!! This is the first like, expensive big purchase I’ve made on my own work and money. It is very nice not getting micro cuts from the shattered screen I had on my old one LOL

I’m actually pretty bad at saving money (I’m gettin better I swear), i love shopping and buying stickers and stuff. No retirement plans or nothing yet just thinking about when I can get my next silly trinket.

People have told me it helps to think of the price of things in the time it takes to work for it. Like a $5 Wendy’s biggie bag is around 15 minutes of work. Though it makes me sad think of things that way,, I want to just enjoy having things. But maybe, doing that will help me learn how to value my time better.

though to be honest, even though my life is logically better than before, I still feel very unhappy. I recognize on paper I’m doing a good, and I’m on a good path, though I wish it would feel that way. I don’t really like what I do.

However, I’m so used to kind of just dealing with things in my life that I dislike rather than try to change it, that now that even if I’m at a point where I have to choose what I want to do, I go with whatever I think practical rather than even consider my emotions. I suppose that’s the consequence of that.

I’m a little worried that my life will start feeling a little monotonous after a while, the aspect of working 1/3 of your life is a little scary. I’m thinking to start a small business to have something that’s non-traditional for me to do.