Little vent here- ((and me ranting))

Yall I have been so lonely today - I tried talking to the family but idk it just seems off talking to them I want to hang out with a friend however I have one main friend but idk about her parents..shes having a hard time rn so I don't wanna bother and she will most likely say no.

I also hate how when I meet people nowadays it is so hard for me to even really not count them as a stranger like I meet someone 2 or 3 weeks ago and they feel so much like strangers that I don't even talk to them- ((I hate myself))