i would like to go out

one day i would like to go out, and people would join me. i'd have texts on my phone telling me they're on their way and calls from my friends trying to find me in the crowd. one day i would feel my phone vibrate and i wouldn't get sad before i look at it because it would not be someone's excuse to cancel, or a rejection in reply. i would have people that make an effort to make happy memories with me, instead of complaining they're bored and therefore don't want to do anything. i would have people that wouldn't be bored because they're with me. i would like to open a window and not have to cry at the sounds of people coming from the outside.