school break

it's nearing the end of my school break and i have about three days before i head back to my awful high school. no more hockey, so im bored all the time and my classes are terrible. i miss semester one. 

but i don't mean to whine even though im going to; let me talk about fish like i always do. 

(my nightly routine goes like this - watch gossip girl, open spacehey, blog about boys and life, sleep) 

so. he hadn't been talking to me for about four days and i was upset and mad at first, but then i remembered that his mental health is pretty poor and since he hadn't been active on anything lately, i wondered if he had gotten himself hurt. i was so worried about him but today he texted me finally. his mother took his phone, so the situation must have been serious because she never does anything like that. 

i don't want to go into the details because who knows whos reading this? but basically, he was framed for the usage of certain things ykwim???? 

i know he was framed because he's not like that and i think hes okay but i honestly wanna check up on him because the longer i go without asking about his mental health, the worse it'll probably get. i don't think anyone else will check on him in that way, but hes a cis guy and hes pretty masculine. he likes latinas asians and femboys, like... 

how am i supposed to ask him in a non-cheesy way??!?!!?!!?!? i doubt he'll bring it up so i won't have an opening to ask about it unless i ask about it first. 

ending on a positive note, i went shopping! and i only spent $10, but i did make a hasty purchase so i ended up leaving the shop with two things i didn't really want that cost more then one thing i actually wanted. i have a bad habit of doing that lmao

the town i was shopping in had a large mall and i spent ages in there. everything was super expensive but i had a cheap and delicious teriyaki chicken donburi for lunch. ughhh it was perfect, the salad was crispy and the rice was soft and warm and the chicken was to die for. i went to the top floor of the mall to look for vinyls and cds. they didn't have bury me at makeout creek, which made me super sad. but i did find fleetwood mac, green day, david bowie and others. there was also some newer stuff like doja cat. not that i got any - they were all around $100 and i don't have that kind of spending money. 

i also visited some recycled clothing shops, and they were playing TV GIRL IN A SHOP which was awesome bc i love tv girl. they played daughter of a cop and i was reminded of how amazing that song is and how much i love it. they also played suki waterhouse who im starting to like. and i found the cutest vs purse in a second hand shop. but the price tag scared me away. 

anyway, my legs were aching after walking around all day.

i think thats all i want to say for right now. BYEEEE LOVE BLAKE