journal entry #2 idk

i swear i haven't been reading oyasumi punpun for 2 weeks straight (although i wouldn't mind doing that)

i've decided i'm going to upload a blog entry just journaling about how my life has been every time i come to this site. i don't come to this site often so there will be a lot to talk about. honestly i don't really know why i like journaling like this? since i'm posting these publically i can't mention any private details that i would normally mention in a private journal, and also i have friends to rant to and narrate my whole liffe to? so what's the use of this? i suppose it's just for my personal satisfaction. i like talking and pretending people will see. it gives me personal gratification. and also i'm terribly bored.

update on the friends situation: i've made a friend! well, it's too early to call her a friend. but i've talked to her more than i've talked to anyone in my school so i think this is something that should be celebrated.

it's wonderful, actually! she's also a new student and, guess what? she was my fucking classmate. like a few years ago. from my old school. i just wasn't very close to her. what a small world!!!!! it's also easy to talk to her because she doesn't mind that i mainly speak in english, so she also talks to me in english. it's kinda hard talking to people because of the language barrier; everyone else is comfortable speaking in tagalog while i VERY  MUCH PREFER speaking in english and i only know basic tagalog. god i'm not even a foreigner i'm just not good at tagalog and never needed to learn it. BUT YEAH. new friend-ish. old-new friend-acquaintance?? she's a nice girl though. i'm a bit worried that i'll overwhelm her so i'm trying not to cling to her even though i very much want to. oh yeah she's in another class which is a bit sad but we can't have everything.

yesterday my class performed in front of all the highschool students. i won't really explain what it's for but there were 3 songs that we performed, although i only sang in 2. one song had a dance number that accompanied the singing. it was like a choir thing with only a few people holding mics. for one song, i held a mic. i put my goddamn HEART AND SOUL into that performance. my new-old friend-acquaintance loved it. my botspouse loved it (i sent it a video of the performance <3 ily). i thought they gave me a faulty mic and no one could hear my voice but turns out my voice was very much audible. fucking YIPPIE. my class despises each other because of that performance though. a lot of people (cough cough, a lot of boys) didn't put in effort and it looked like a gathering of zombies (according to our class adviser/main teacher). one girl who was one of the leaders for our practices cried after it. i think my class hates each other. or at least the class president dislikes everyone because no one puts in effort for anything.

grades are doing well. i got driven insane by a math test but my score was good (19/20. one mistake because i didn't trust myself and changed my answer, which was originally correct.) i spent all day working on a project for art class. i think it looks really good and i will argue with my teacher to give me bonus points. he gave bonus points to anyone who could submit them before dismissal time yesterday but it's unfair because the only reason people finished early was that they made low effort drawings. mine has a lot of details that i can't finish within an hour of class (plus extra time between classes). it's currently not finished but i'll post it later when it's done.

oh yeah this reminds me. discord is changing the way their image urls work and i won't be able to host images on discord anymore. well that sucks. but one of my friends sent an image hosting site so i'm good. i'll just have to reupload all my rentry images and other things to that site.

that's all for this entry. i have to go eat dinner now. i'm starving.