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I WANT TO suid of the slide MYSELF AAAAA-

I started to- do the cut of the fl3sh on myself- again after like stopping in 8th grade- lmao fucken wild-

Anyways Im unable to break uhhh the fl3sh so yeah- love being to cowardly to break the skin- But I mean- I inly have rusty dirty ass shears so,,,, cut me some slack- I only have whats at my disposal- unfortunately that mean no mr. Nife with a k in the front. 

Sucks- I know but I'm banned from having one. I have- connections that limit my inventory if that makes sense. 

No I will not explain but man will it be funny (If it ever comes up).

Anyways- I'm just venting out my frustrations bcs these fucking connections canceled a 'talk' that we all planned to had. They canceled without my fucking knowledge and here I am feeling fucking stupid and wanting to smash their faces into the god damn tables they're respectively sitting on. 

But again that's not very cash money of me so I don't-

Sides these connections are valuable for me in the long run. But anyways back to the self loathing- I fucking want to kill myselfffffff. 

I should've killed myself the day I planned it all. Jesus fucking christ- It would've saved me alot of fucking trouble. As a trans hispanic I am destined to die in the next couple of years- it's just fucking inevitable.

Why postpone the inevitable? When you can just do it now and not worry after- seriously- no one would've fucking cared and legit no one would miss me. Not the real me anyways- perhaps the fake me that's been on deathbed. They might miss that fucker- but alas-

This world is fucking rotten and there is no one kind enough to even help the damned. 

And if there is, then thank you- 

Unfortunately a majority of us suffer with this bullshit world. 

I jusf want to not feel tired man.