Hello to whoever reads this,
since this is my first blog entry ever, I wish to be excused for my writing. Firtly because I'm not familiar with this format and secondly because english isn't my mother tongue.
To get to the topic I want to tell you a little bit about life rn. I don't know what exactly is going on and I'm asking for advice. The last days I've been super sleepy like extremely and thus I've been sleeping nearly every afternoon after school. I slept from I'd say 2 or 3pm until 8-10pm. When I got up I did my homework and was on my phone and then went to sleep again at around 2am. To be honest, I have to correct myself from before: I don't really think I was sleepy I'm just extremely bored. So bored that I can't even stand being awake in the afternoon and rather sleeping through the day waiting for it to pass. Writing this made me realize that I sound like a complete loser but honestly I'm very social and have a lot of friends in school. I even like going to school more than I like staying at home. But like that's it my friendships pretty much stay at school. Don't get me wrong: It may seem like they're fake friends then, but they're not. I meet some of my friends on the weekends and stuff but I just don't really find the motivation or time during the week. At home I am especially alone: I'm an only child and pretty much grew up with having to entertain myself. I also didn't meet up with friends that much when I was a child, since I always idk worried? And for all these years being alone has worked. But like now it just feels draining, everything is boring. What even am I supposed to do at home? Watching tiktok, youtube or dancing to music? -Yes, but I've done that nearly a hundred times this day alone. Why has every day to be the same? Why do I not meet up with other people if I'm that social and like generally happy with my friends right now. School feels like the only happy place right now and like that very concerning hahahah. I mean who even likes school? How is even school more fun than having to deal with myself? Why do I not enjoy doing things lately? How am I that sad but also that happy at the same time?
Can anyonhe help me and give me advice how to..idk have more fun? Or however you would word this. I know that some people have worse problems in life but this is just confusing me.
Thank you for reading through this