2023/09/29 - College Frustrations

sorry to start on an angry note but OH MY GOD I HATE VAGUE INSTRUCTIONS

i was trying to finish an assignment that's due today for my databases class, and I felt lost the whole time because I had no idea if I was actually doing it right. And the rubric seemed totally unrelated? It had sections about programming.... when the assignment was about making an ER diagram. I feel like maybe she either copy-pasted the rubric without paying attention, or there was some fuckin secret extra part she left out of the instructions or some shit. And I'm worried I missed something now.

I already failed a class once in first year, it wasn't entirely my fault, but I still had to retake the course regardless, so I know how much I don't want to deal with that bullshit again. Sometimes I'm like "why am I even doing this?" with how it feels like I'm basically just paying to be stressed LOL

And I swear we've been repeating the same shit over and over again. Like how many times do we have to learn about the Software Development Lifecycle, motherfucker? I GET IT.

Anyway, on a more positive note. I'm going up to visit my grandparents with my mom this evening & tomorrow, and we're gonna go to a market. So, that should be nice at least :)

I'm not sure there's much else to say about my day. I don't really do a whole lot that's interesting, spend too much time cooped up in my room probably loll

if I think of anything later today/anything interesting happens I'll edit this blog post, but otherwise that's all i've got for now