Vent

I wanna fcking kms so badly rn I don’t deserve to be alive I just want this to end I hate my dad and mom so much but at the same time i still love them but i hate this fcking bastard sm, he’s the reason I have so many bruises on my legs and arms and my moms the main reason I’m so insecure over my body, ever since I was in fcking kindergarten she would body shame me and say I was overweight and now i starve myself bc of it and i start crying whenever someone raises their voice at me now bc of these stupid mfs. My mom didn’t give a fck when they found out i was sa’d at school when I was in 6th grade and my dad deadass starved me today, he bought food for him and my little sister cuz my mom was at church but he didn’t buy jackshit for me and i literally cry when he looks at me a certain way now and whenever i cry in front of him he yells at me and beats the living shit out of me to “give me a reason to cry” and i hate it sm when ppl say stupid shit like “at least you have a dad” like mf stfu