nostalgic for literally only 5 months ago

Its been a while since I've used this site but i'm feeling melodramatic again so here i am

somehow, I'm nostalgic for 5 months ago. maybe 6, 7. basically last semester. I already wrote a bit about how new things are scary but now I'm experiencing the effects of that. I used to be the "mature for her age" typa kid. i had everything figured out. Now i feel like a BABY. crying over every little thing that goes wrong... But it makes sense, I'm not as mature in certain parts of my life because i never paid attention to them, or they were inactive. so I'm a bit behind when it comes to those things. 

I had tougher skin when i was alone, i guess thats why i'm nostalgic. I was a bit more level headed. Now i'm kind of drowning in it, happy i'm in love, but losing myself a little in the process. Haven't really indulged in my hobbies or interests or anything in a while.

I remember whenever i'd come across an abandon deviantart page of some emo kid i'd be like, huh, i wonder where they are now? or what happened? but i kinda get it now cuz thats whats happening to me

they werent lonely anymore, they got a life, and it took priority

weird

dont know how to feel yet

But just like everything in the past, i'll figure it out