Fixations.

i'm not gonna call them hyperfixations because i'm not diagnosed, but there's a plethora of characters i've fixated on, and then ended up falling into a spiral of self-degradation.

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List of characters:

• Xiao (he has suffered much more than i have, therefore his behavior is justified and mine is not. he'd hate me if he met me, therefore i shouldn't fixate on him)
• Charles Cuevas (again, he'd hate me. he's intelligent, and i'm very thick.)
• Zhongli (literally an archon. he's incredibly intelligent, and i struggle to remember things he'd remember very easily.)
• Bill Cipher (i'd quite literally just be a toy to him for him to manipulate.)
• Hayate Tendo (she's so so pretty, and i'm not anywhere near being that pretty)

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i feel like it's easy to compare yourself to characters you're obsessed with, and start to dislike yourself for it. as you can probably tell, it's worse with xiao. yet i still have him as the layout. please leave your thoughts on the matter<3 (this is not a vent.)