Hi hi hi~! We've been super all over the place recently, and I wanted to talk about a really really cool feeling I had while we were at a convention last week!
So I'm really really bad around groups of people, the more people the worse it is. I have really bad panic attacks and hate when people look at me, it's a really big problem... And you can probably tell that doesn't mix well with being in a convention, with thousands and thousands of people around us, ehehe... But! After a minute, I noticed something!
Nobody was looking at me! Nobody was thinking about me, perceiving me, nobody would even acknowledge me unless I wanted them to! The moment I stepped out of their line of vision I was gone, forgotten, never to be remembered ever again! Nobody cared about me, nobody cared I existed, I could be dead or disappear and nobody around me would ever notice! It made me feel so much better, I felt so... Invisible, almost, ehehe.
So that's how I found out you can be invisible if you're surrounded by people all focused on themselves and the things around them! Everyone was focused on their friends or the items in the booths or the panels, I could walk past and they wouldn't even notice! It's such a great feeling, compared to how horrible it feels any time someone looks at me usually, especially in public, ehehe...
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saffo
i love it when that happens
a lot of people would think it's bad to be 'invisible' but it actually helps so much in situations where i feel horrible and anxious
it lets me sort of take a moment to remove myself from what's going on and check in with myself
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axel
Wow I think that might really help with my anxiety!! Sometimes it could feel bad but I thik in the context it's really helpful :)
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