Father

Ok,so ummm background info I have daddy issues and play drums at church along with my father who plays guitar,my little brother,and 2 friends from church who are both siblings.Today at practice I was really tired and I wasn't playing good enough along with the rest of the group. Every time I mess up during practice,my father would give me deaths stares and I would try to hold in tears since I didn't want to look weak and too emotional in front of the other 2 kids.Near the end of practice,we were doing better than when we started practice but for some reason my dad was more happy with the other girl than me and I really really REALLY wanted to cry in that moment.Why wasn't he proud of me?Was I expecting to much of a reaction from him?Did he prefer the other girl more than me?Does he want to replace me for her?I felt jealous of her.I wanted the attention and praise he was giving her.I don't know how to deal with these types of emotions,but is this normal???Is it normal to crave attention from your father to the point were you get jealous of anyone who gets attention and praise from him?

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ezra

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can i give you my personal opinion?

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Yeah sure!I just really need to fix my relationship with him,especially since my 15 yrs are coming up

by ST4R💫[🍉]; 1716093030; Report

i think he's n ass, ion want you to think badly of me for that but seriously who treats their own kid that way n I'm sorry that you have to endure all of that shi n idk if this is weird considering we dk each other but I'm proud of u, like genuinely cz u a better person than me id be absolutely hating on him at any given opportunity if I was u. still tho this is just what I personally think right, so I hope the best for yew n your fathers relationship!!
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by ezra; 1716707015; Report