apology

i'm sorry for sending the threat. i'm sorry for letting my violent outburst get the best of me. i'm sorry i don't at least try. i'm sorry that i let myself get like this. i'm sorry for trying to get help. i'm sorry for overodisng. i'm sorry for having an escape from my household. i'm sorry i don't act 16. i'm sorry i didn't tell anyone until now about this. i'm sorry for pleading for help everywhere i go. i'm sorry for being born like this. i'm sorry for just being born. i'm sorry for becoming friends with y'all. i'm sorry i talked to y'all. i'm sorry i never was open with my mom about these things. i'm sorry for not being able to help myself. i'm sorry i dumped about everything going on. i'm sorry i couldn't get better. i'm sorry that i'm even doing this right now. i'm sorry for being ridiculously anti-social. i'm sorry for being depressed all the time. i'm sorry for my anxiety being worse than severe depression apparently. i'm sorry i'm not always just for entertainment. i'm sorry that i'm too scared to grow up. i'm sorry that i'm losing balance and getting weaker. i'm sorry if i'm guilt tripping. i'm sorry for just existing. i'm sorry for trying to see if at least one person cared.