Comfort

Its funny how when everything it's too much for me, and i don't have someone to really heard me, to give me comfort, there's a chance, of the dream of that night be to give me the comfort i didn't had in the day.

Some days ago i had a breakdown, i was feeling so stressed that day and i was like 2 days in dreams time, just there, in a comfy place, with family a like, in an place that makes me comfortable, with those people actually there to make me feel better, its just feels great have your emotions validated, it feels great that this people i know in real life are validating me, instead of telling me to stop feeling in this way, or asking, i liked the silence, i loved the comfort.

Being in a room dark full of blankets and pillows, with some people of my family, having just some bonding time looking movies at "home"

It was all i needed to feel better for my next day

Not just a break for the stuff that happens in real life

It was also a break from the chaotic dreams i been having for so long

I remember a dream were i had a different "dad", a fictional character, a villain, a dead villain, even if he was evil to all, he was a great dad to me, i needed emotional validation, a hug...

Even if he was dead he was there as a ghost to heard me, to comfort me, first time i had "fall asleep" in a dream.

I get the comfort I can't have in reality from my dreams

That's whats keeps me going everyday

To make this people that exist in my dreams proud

I hope find them again in the next one
I miss my "dad"

I miss my "sisters"

I miss my "kids"

I miss my "friends"

I miss the life i made that never existed

I miss the comfort that i can't get

I miss the comfort i couldn't give

I miss things i don't have

I love every dream

I love every nightmare

I love every emotion

I love the story i have

I love try to put the pieces together to make a timeline

I love exist to see it

I love my reality, because thanks to it, i can have all of these dreams

I love living