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WHY ME PLEASE WHY. so I checked my GPA and I have A LITERAL 0.7 which is an F here's the kicker I'm an AP student I passed all my tests and I'm practically smarter and I  already have college credits and whatever I've had advance classes for a while WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH STUPID FUCKING MENTAL I JUST WANT TO WAKE UP AND GO TO SCHOOL BELEIVE ME WHEN I SAY THAT IF IT WAS EASY THEN I WOULDN'T BE A FUCKING DISAPOINTMENT. I'm so jealous of people who are technically better than me in every way shape and form I CAN'T I PLAN EVERYDAY THAT I'M GOING TO WAKE UP AND GO TO SCHOOL BUT MY FUCKING BODY STARTS ETTING WEAK AND STARTS HURTING AND IT'S HARD TO MOVE OUT OF MY BED AND I JUST CAN'T I TRY SO HARD I PROMISE THOUGH NOTHING I DO HELPS. it's embarrassing to even be a human being and even breath the same air as people who go through worse than me and still go. I hate myself so much and I'm mad and degusted that I let some stupid mental problem control my entire life i can't even promise I'll do better because i don't even know how I'm going to do this week it's Sunday and i have one whole day to either do what i need to do or fuck myself in the ass and just continue being a literal failure. why am i this way. i wish i wasn't fucking born.