Late night thought

Hi my name is Lexi and this is my blog. Idk what else to say because I’ve never had a blog but wanted to started one as a place to vent and perhaps just tell my stories to see if others relate. Does anyone else feel the world getting more and more chaotic? Idk but it just seems so crazy out there have to always watch yourself unless I was just that sheltered as a child. Also what the hell is up with rent? I work SO MUCH in the food n bev business at a high class restaurant and still cannot make ends meet. Idk I feel under achieved compared to people my age doing better or doing things. I just work to pay rent so I can go to school and then work to pay for more things. I keep telling myself maybe when school ends it’ll all get better? But like… what if it doesn’t? Makes me want to give up. But I keep telling myself I’m gonna just have to find out for myself. I just gotta keep going. My winter depression has also been hell. I’ve also had depression but it’s amplified in my young adult life and it’s gotten to a point I can’t control it I just feel what it wants me to feel. My life is so chaotic I feel I could go on and on. Ttyl